:::::::::: 08-30 Diary 0001

There are so many things i'm not so sure about the stuff around me , start with friends is it bcoz myself or is just thats the way things work around here , why am i always the one that go on ad find the other and never the other way round , i've been very friendly with them , like sandy , ivan , martin , grace ,Johnny , kerry , suichi , erica , Benz and the other load , i ask myself~ i never actually done anything wrong to them or make them unhappy especially grace , martin , johnny , kerry and erica ... it's just i'm always the one that is always forgotten =.=
Well , may be i just need to let what ever will happen happen , i've try very hard to change the ways things should happen , gettin tired of it now , what ever i do is jus t gonna end at the same place , i give up. I'll be crying if 1 of them actually remember where i live v_v
I miss Breanda and Ben ga , but what can i really do now ? please help me someone


I so want to play badminton , i miss it so much all i brought over is just a racket and that it all , i still haven't got my AT700 and i still have't pay richard yet , he's so gonna kill me !! I just read the post today , the people on badminton forum already forgotten me la , so grey , guess you really need to be good to get yourself a place in thir memory , i just wish them to know that i can play better badminton , but there's just isn't a way that i can show them.........

I'm so bored here , just got nothing to do at all , everyday is almost the same , it is not as good as i think it will be.... i so want to get back to every noraml 20 years old life , everything has change plus you just will know what will happen soon , guess it is not very good to know what is waiting right infront of you . This is meant to be a holiday but it just turn out to be like a "prep times" To be quite honest , dun really go on for more , coz i'm not sure i'll be able to handle it .... at here you just being with the same person everyday but theres always trouble between us . And of coz u will feel a bit odd when u c a couple you always think back what happen before , so scary but so wanna turn back . Seems like there is an ending which i can see now , all now i can do is just wait.

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Linkin Park - Numb MTV

^{Thats My first online message to both of you which is the whole song, you've made the wrong choice , I'm sorry , may be i've should have not hang on for that long}



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I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]



I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.




can't you see that your smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you.



[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]

every step that I take is another mistake to you

[caught in the undertow,just caught in the undertow]

and every second I waste is more than I can take.


I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too

But I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you.



I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
[tired of being what you want me to be]

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
[tired of being what you want me to be]

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