:::::::::: 08-30 Diary 0001

There are so many things i'm not so sure about the stuff around me , start with friends is it bcoz myself or is just thats the way things work around here , why am i always the one that go on ad find the other and never the other way round , i've been very friendly with them , like sandy , ivan , martin , grace ,Johnny , kerry , suichi , erica , Benz and the other load , i ask myself~ i never actually done anything wrong to them or make them unhappy especially grace , martin , johnny , kerry and erica ... it's just i'm always the one that is always forgotten =.=
Well , may be i just need to let what ever will happen happen , i've try very hard to change the ways things should happen , gettin tired of it now , what ever i do is jus t gonna end at the same place , i give up. I'll be crying if 1 of them actually remember where i live v_v
I miss Breanda and Ben ga , but what can i really do now ? please help me someone


I so want to play badminton , i miss it so much all i brought over is just a racket and that it all , i still haven't got my AT700 and i still have't pay richard yet , he's so gonna kill me !! I just read the post today , the people on badminton forum already forgotten me la , so grey , guess you really need to be good to get yourself a place in thir memory , i just wish them to know that i can play better badminton , but there's just isn't a way that i can show them.........

I'm so bored here , just got nothing to do at all , everyday is almost the same , it is not as good as i think it will be.... i so want to get back to every noraml 20 years old life , everything has change plus you just will know what will happen soon , guess it is not very good to know what is waiting right infront of you . This is meant to be a holiday but it just turn out to be like a "prep times" To be quite honest , dun really go on for more , coz i'm not sure i'll be able to handle it .... at here you just being with the same person everyday but theres always trouble between us . And of coz u will feel a bit odd when u c a couple you always think back what happen before , so scary but so wanna turn back . Seems like there is an ending which i can see now , all now i can do is just wait.